Happy New Year! The beginning of a new year is always a good time to reflect on the year that has passed and think about what we want to accomplish in the upcoming year. For me 2017 wasn’t all the great. It wasn’t a bad year but it was one that was challenging and difficult emotionally.
For starters, I ran the Surf City Marathon in February. I had a goal time of 4:20 and I crossed the finish line in 4:39. I was LESS than thrilled. Emotionally I was upset and physically I was drained. I so badly wanted to hit that goal and coming off of Ironman I thought that I would be able to. It didn’t happen. A marathon isn’t something that you just go and do over either so I knew that it was going to be a long road ahead before I ran another one.
Then it was a roller coaster of “I want to race again, no wait I don’t want to race again.” When all your team mates are signed up for an Ironman and you are hearing about all their training and how they are feeling it is so easy to get caught up in all of that. It is also easy to get down on yourself and feel like you aren’t doing enough. There was a conversation at least twice a week with me telling Evan that I wanted to do another Ironman and him telling me that was not a good idea. To be honest, it was draining.
In July I ran the Napa to Sonoma half marathon and I finished the race in 1:52. It was not a PR for me however it was a course PR so that was exciting. Emotionally it was great to have set a goal and make it happen. It was awesome to see that all my hard work had paid off and I was so excited to have crossed that finish line and felt like I had done the best I could.
I put training on hold in August and took the month to recoup and get ready to return back to work. Evan and I took a trip to Kauai and had a wonderful time. When we returned I had no idea that I would be faced with the biggest emotional mess of the year…I didn’t know it but my fur baby Eldrick was sick and there wasn’t anything that we could do to help him. At the end of the month we had to say goodbye. Those who know me know that I LOVE my cats. I really love them. This guy was beyond special to me so to have that take away was such a devastation. 4 months later and I admit that I still cry about what happened. I miss him everyday.
In October I ran the Long Beach half marathon. I really don’t like that race and I only did it so that I could get my beach cities challenge medal. I was signed up for the marathon however I didn’t train enough and was majorly lacking motivation so I just did the half. It was a good choice for me.
The end of the year came and went in a rush and it was full of lots of cheer and fun. I had a wonderful time with my students at our Thanksgiving Feast, seeing Santa, the Christmas program and our 5th annual Polar Express Day. We even had a mini Star Wars day to celebrate the release of the new movie. Christmas came and went and it was fun to spend time with the family. Evan and I went to a UCLA Basketball game and we also went to watch the L.A. Rams take on the SF 49ers at a football game. A great way to end the year.
All in all I admit that I am glad 2017 is behind me, it wasn’t a great year. It did allow me to reflect on myself and what I want to accomplish in 2018. There have been several people discussing that they are picking a word for the year.
The word I pick? Spirit.
I want to be able to work on my spirituality and really dive in when I am at church. I began attending a bible study and with all the things going on I only went once. Now that I am back to a normal schedule I am going to make the time to attend the weekly sessions.
I want to have a positive spirit. I want people to know that I am someone who loves what I do and who is positive. I want my spirit to be one that people want to be around. I also want people with good spirits to be around me. I want them to be able to lift my spirit when I am feeling down and I want to be able to do to the same for them. I really do understand now that we shouldn’t take anything for granted and that life really is short so we need to be the best that we can be during this lifetime.
I want a spirit that is driven. I want to be able to finish the Santa Rosa 70.3 Ironman strong and have a spirit that won’t break during training. I can do it.
I am deciding to set a word for me rather than goals. It seems that when I set goals this early on they get lost in the shuffle of life so I am going to take each month at a time and assess what needs to get done.
I know that it take effort to ensure that you make your life more positive and the best it can be. If I just sit back and wait I don’t think that anything will happen. I need to jump in and make sure that I am an advocate for my positive spirit. Here is to 2018 and making sure that I make the best out of it!